Insulino-dependente, além de outras coisas

Eu tomo, normalmente, seis injeções todo dia. Elas têm lugar fixo para aplicação, não posso aplicá-las em qualquer área do corpo. Não posso deixar de tomar essas injeções. Às vezes eu acerto uma veia quando vou aplicar, e daí dói muito. Sangra. Por vezes, a dose é expelida e eu tenho que fazer uma nova aplicação. Eu sei que pode haver uma veia ali onde vou aplicar, mas não posso evitar. Não consigo prever se a acertarei ou não. Penso nisso em todas as seis vezes diárias em que vou injetar. E não posso parar.

Isso diz muito sobre a minha vida relacional.

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